How does feeling deeply aligned to your inner wisdom all day, every day feel to you?

You have probably been told you were too sensitive, a bit weird, that you just needed to get over it, move on, put your best foot forward, and just DO IT.

Maybe you tried to fit in. You have worn the fashion, assumed the posture, repeated the right language but it just never felt good. 

I've been there. It's painful and exhausting. 

It’s time for you to be guided by your own inner wisdom, soothe your heart and body with embodiment practices and hear the wise guidance from primordial archetypes.

Once upon a time…

I was an ethereal child. I remember being swept away to a fairy circle one wild night by my imaginary friend Murkey- a member of the fae. We entered a toadstool circle and danced wildly. During the waking hours, I had long conversations with my best friends Sally and Tom who were two trees. I would always shake their hands (branches) each time I passed them in the backyard. My other friend was a green tree frog who had found a home in our letterbox. I would visit him each day with water and leaves as offerings.
 
The most sublime ecstatic experience I had was being surrounded by over 100 rainbow lorikeets on our back deck. Just little four year old me and those brightly coloured feathers. Those birds really know how to party. Pure hedonism!

The (self) reflection

As I left childhood, like so many of us, I learned to believe that being intellectual was better than being intuitive, strategically heading somewhere was safer than gentle exploration and flow, and purpose was preferable to pointless passion. I rejected a part of myself - my wild nature-loving ethereal self - and locked it away. Deep deep within me.
 
From the age of seven to twenty, chronic cystic acne vulgaris covered my face. I had no healthy skin, only large red cysts. My skin was reacting to the experiences I was having - things I could not express. I believed I was ugly, so needed to be extra smart, as I was going to get nothing and nowhere with my looks. Better get working on the other stuff - like good grades, helping people and being a "good girl". Years of antibiotics, the pill and Accutane (the big gun) followed.
 
By the time I was twenty-two I believed I was allergic to nature. Being in the city was best - shopping for shoes, thick makeup and the latest fashion replaced the op shop finds of my once wild creative spirit. Drinking on the weekend, punishing myself at the gym, trying to control my curves in restrictive clothing, never ever feeling beautiful or good enough, using my sexuality to get attention from men, and not believing I had anything else to offer. And then the guilt, the shame, the judgement. Life was difficult, unwelcoming, cold and harsh.
 
Studying theatre and acting whilst at university was a welcome respite. Being someone else was a relief from being me. Creating another world was a sanctuary, but my studies eventually came to an end. How was I to survive?
 
I thought I needed to reject the artistic, the sensitive and the creative to survive. The ways of the artist, the empath, the sensitive, the creatrix were only going to lead me into poverty, and loneliness. I had swallowed the myth of the starving and suffering artist. Fallen for that lie - hook, line and sinker!
 
So I got a job in the corporate world. For a while I believed I was happy - with the clothes, the shoes, the car, the boyfriends, the not awful career, hey it was better than nothing. I told myself I was lucky, to stop being greedy and wanting more. So I put my best blistered and high heeled foot forward.

The wake up call (aka reality check)

After taking ecstasy at a music festival my boyfriend cheated on me. I was devastated. Little did I know that this was the catalyst for my awakening. The life I was living was not working for me. I did not understand how to change. I just knew I desperately needed to.

Bit by bit over a decade resources started to come my way. Teachers, counselors, books, movies, yoga, veganism, whole foods, meditation, shamans, energy medicine. It is so true - when the student is ready the teacher (or teachers) will come.

Yoga helped me understand the importance of discipline on the spiritual path and that slogging away at the gym did little for my spirit (and actually not that much for me physically either). I experienced the satisfaction and magic of daily committed practice over a number of years.

Vegan living taught me the power of plants to heal and brought me closer to animals and nature. I felt lighter and connected to my Higher Self.

I found my energy medicine teacher Deborah King and continue to keep my energy medicine skills sharpened with her training. From the moment I saw her work over a livestream tears spilled down my face - it was like coming home for me. This is the energy that I could always sense but now I could recognise and understand it. I learned to discern the difference between a helpful loving strong energy and a powerful draining one. I am proud to be a practised and skilled energy practitioner.

I became a certified Beautiful You coach so I could better guide my clients to connect to their own inner wisdom rather than looking for answers from outside of themselves.

My inner feminine came flooding through after a powerful women's weekend with Tantric Blossoming. After which years of grief seemed to overwhelm me as I restarted my relationship to my inner feminine - a part of me that had been neglected for years. After which months of ecstasy as sexual energy washed through me. (I was put on performance management at work. All I wanted to do was dance, eat raw chocolate and make love).
 
Through opening to my flowing feminine nature I became more creative - creating delightful life experiences, sensual pleasures and authentic relationships.

I could feel my wildness returning. My connection to my true nature. My connection to the wonder and magic of the natural world.

The long long road ahead

Long lasting change does not happen in an instant but takes daily committed practice.
 
It may take a lifetime.
 
In my twenties and thirties romances would be a playground of learnings, some friendships would fade whilst others held me with love and understanding, skin cancer surgery would occur that hardly left a mark, surgery to reduce the acne scarring would happen and a frightening bout of tinnitus fast tracked me to radical self care. Corporate life brought highs and lows (including awards, promotions, financial success as well as bullying and soul-crushing stuckness). I felt I was a little bit of a cliché. I owned the unit in the posh Sydney suburb, the European car, took the overseas holidays but I felt so unsatisfied. I had so much creativity inside me and time was tick-tick-ticking away.

So much of my inner landscape had shifted through committed daily practices. My physical body and the food I was attracted to eating had evolved going plant based. Through my energy medicine practice my sensitivity became a wonderful gift supporting my clients and myself (as opposed to being a burden).
 
It was time to make the big leap and change my days completely.

A different way of being

Finally after twelve years in a comfortable (then eventually toxic) but ultimately unsatisfying career I called it a day, and found part time work as a Medical Science Liaison working for a start up medical cannabis company.

I opened up space and time for my wild sensitive creative self to write, play and garden. I found myself in a romantic union with a man who offered me the type of support, presence and partnership I did not know was possible for me.

I invested in business coaching to step up as a healer and coach.

Embodying a New Truth

 All of my scars are a symbol of how I became wiser and wilder. Everyday I am reminded why my body is my greatest guide and my intellect is there for discernment and debate. I have created the type of structures in my life where I can flow and release all dogma. Life feels delicious and I am bursting full of life force so I can hold sacred space for myself as well as you. So we can work together and you can be guided back to your inner wisdom. Let’s begin.

Freya Isobel is an energy medicine practitioner, archetype activator and workshop facilitator. Freya has been certified by Michaela Boehm as a Wild Women's Way Circle Facilitator, a certified Archetypal Consultant (Caroline Myss) and a certified Beautiful You Life Coach. In 2012 Freya completed Deborah King's fifth level Energy Medicine program. Freya has a BA (Drama) from QUT and studied playwriting at NIDA (National Institute of Dramatic Art). Freya's offerings are designed to soothe and nourish so her clients have a deeper awareness of their bodies' wisdom. When a body feels relaxed and energised it creates space to harness the influence of archetypes to actualise our unique gifts and live embodied, authentic and intuitive lives.

Her theatre and drama experience informs all her work through her understanding of archetypes, the creative process and the power of language and ritual. Freya supports her clients on their own epic journey - a journey to authentic living through the embodiment of their unique archetypes- as her clients’ personal powers come to fruition. The tantric dance between the energies of yin (feminine) and yang (masculine) is essential to her work, as is assisting clients to hear their intuition through enquiry and embodiment practices. Freya’s clients go on to take courageous action to produce their art, create new business or initiate exciting personal projects all whilst creating and maintaining delicious relationships.